I was made of poison and blood

[Zachary Mark Flaherty]

(( push it baby, push it outta control,

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i got my gun cocked tight and i'm ready to blow ))
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Zach was alone in the huge stop and shop. He was told to go shopping for more food. Why him? He would only go get what he wanted for food to eat, and get more cigarettes. That was what he wanted at the moment, gum and cigarettes. And maybe chips. He grabbed a cart and walked around. He knew that he was going to end up with a ton of food, because he ate a lot, and so did Sydney and Ember.

He had a black sweatshirt on, the hood covered his head. Ember was safe at home with Sydney, or so he hoped. They were both there when he left. He had black converse on his feet and dark skinny jeans on. He sort of had eye liner on his eyes, but it was only on to hid the huge purple around his eyes. He never slept anymore. Ember was always wanting something in the middle of the night, or didn't' want to sleep. He was the one awake most of the time because he didn't work, and he didn't go to school. One of them had to stay with her all the time. And the parent was Zach. He really didn't want to run into anyone, but if he did oh well.

He walked down an isle and picked up a bag of chips. He grabbed a two litter bottle of mountain dew and put that in the basket. God, he hated food shopping. Sure he did it anyway, but he hated it. He had his wallet in his back pocket and he leaned on the cart. He was so tired. He blinked his blue eyes, they looked a lot brighter with the eyeliner around them. He sneezed into his chest. He had a cold on top of not being able to sleep anymore.

He was a mess and he knew it.

He needed help. He left the list that he was suppose to take to stop & shop in the apartment next to the door by Sydney's keys. He was really tired.

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STATUS;;[/color]done
TAGGED;;[/color] Eliza
OUTFIT;;[/color] ewags
MUSIC;;[/color] 21st century breakdown - Greenday
CREDIT;;[/color] NIKKI SYX ?! of caution2.0, bby![/size][/right]

[Eliza Renee Parson]

{{~I was forgotten,
but I won't be forgotten ever again}}
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Eliza almost ran into the grocery store with a knife and a gun. She looked at every single place in town, hell she even checked Joey and Jake's apartment, but no one. Jake said he hated seen Joey in a week or so. That pissed her off even more. Not only did Joey almost kill the one person in the world that was there to protect her he just got up and left...without..a..word. Remind you of someone,[/color] her thoughts mocked. She just sort of glared to herself and hissed back in thoughts No, it doesn't. He is running away from his..fuck you thoughts... She sighed and walked around the store. A few people tried to help her, but she didn't bother. She decided to look as much like a slut as she could. Revenge in her mind toward Joey. He can screw himself probably. Eliza clenched her teeth as she walked around.

Wearing a jacket she quickly took it off and tied it around her waist. Wearing a skimpy long sleeved shirt that exposed way to much cleavage she also wore jeans that were really tight. Plus the heels were the cherry on top of the ultimate sluttiness. She wouldn't be a a prostitute. No She promised Gabriel. She promised she wouldn't do it ever again, but hell. Why have all these good clothes go to waste? So she wanted to wear them all one last time. Licking her lips she scanned through each aisle.

Seeing one guy that she thought was Joey, but no. No colorful hair. Staring at the person though she realized it was Zach. Fuck. IF he saw her like this he would kill her..Than she stopped. So what? It was her life. She could live it however the hell she choose to live it. If Joey didn't almost kill Gabriel she would be depressed and just plain out out of wack. Well, she was out of wack, but not depressed wise. She was pissed off and just mad at the world.

Staring down the isle she shrugged and started to walk down. Looking around she knew she needed some more chips so she grabbed a bag of Doritos, Lays, and plain potato chips. Seeing as Zach leaned against his cart she figured he must be exhausted. Walking over to him her heels clicking loud against the floor she reached beside him and grabbed a Dr. Pepper and smiled at him.

Backing up a foot away from him she stood in front of him her arms crossed. Smiling she nudged him lightly on the shoulder and said "You awake?" Tilting her head to the side she smield softly and said "Zach...are you okay?" She was anxiously awaiting his reaction on her outfit.

She knew he would be pissed and right now that was what she was feeding on. Anger.[/size]

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Notes: Ewwww no lickyyy!
Credit: Meeee ((:
Song: Forgotten by Avril Lavigne
Outfit: In posttt mutha truckerrr!

[Zachary Mark Flaherty]

(( push it baby, push it outta control,

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i got my gun cocked tight and i'm ready to blow ))
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Zach looked like crap, and he felt like it. He had his head down and he didn't care if anyone came up to him. He heard heels click down to him, and yet he didn't care. He was leaning on the cart. He yawned and coughed. He felt like crap, but he stil had to go out and get food. He blinked his black lined eyes.

Zach felt someone nudge him. “What do you want?” He groaned. He looked up and saw Eliza. His blue eyes widened at her outfit. “What the fuck are you wearing?” He asked shocked. She looked like a freaking slut. He blinked at her, his bright blue eyes staring at her. He could care less if she asked why he was wearing eye liner. “Uh. I'm fine. Just a cold.” He said, before he coughed. “Why do you look like a fucking slut today? I thought you were going to change back to the Eliza everyone loved.” He said. He yawned. He looked at her and shook his head.

“You're pissed about something. What's up?” He asked. He stood up straight. “Did Gabriel hurt you?” He asked. “Or Joey?” He wrapped his arm around her shoulders. He frowned at her. He kissed the top of her head like a big brother would, though his spider bites went into her head. He really did only think of her like a sister, not an ex-girlfriend. And that was probably what she thought of him. Nothing more then a big brother. Though, she was older then him. He was still twice her weight

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NOTES;;

[/color] -licks-
STATUS;;[/color]done
TAGGED;;[/color] Eliza
OUTFIT;;[/color] ewags
MUSIC;;[/color] 21st century breakdown - Greenday
CREDIT;;[/color] NIKKI SYX ?! of caution2.0, bby![/size][/right]

[Eliza Renee Parson]

When Zach looked up she was still smiling. Though, he was wearing eyeliner. Why the hell was he wearing eyeliner? She didn't dare criticize though because she looked like a damn slut, so she just kept it to herself. Though, really..he just..she didn't think about it.

She grinned when his eyes widened and he questioned what the fuck she was wearing. She shrugged and said "I am wearing clothes Zachary." Her smile becoming bigger each time he cursed and blinked at her. "Oh, well make sure you pick up some medicine before you leave. God knows if you keep really any drugs around your house with your baby and all.." She shook her head and put her hand on her chest and said "I just look like a slut Zach. i am not actually one." She smiled at him and shook her head saying "I am the Eliza everyone loves. Gabriel is my friend. Joey is an asshole and Sydney almost punched me in the face." Her voice icy and cruel with each word.“ Watching as he shook his head she just narrowed her eyes.

"Gabriel hasn't laid a finger on me. He has been the nicest to me..” She groaned and rubbed her temples. Sighing she said "No, Joey almost killed Gabriel. Gabriel came back to my apartment all brusied up and a giant cut on his arm! I knew Joey did it because I haven't seen him since he got attacked. Gabriel told me who it was too so.." She stopped. Her fists clenched tight. When Zach wrapped his arm around her like a big brother and kissed the top of her head she clenched her fists tighter and said "They all tell me I've changed..You and Sydney get married and get pregnant...me and Sydney have gotten in two fights..and..and...I just want to run away again." She balled up her fists and said "I am only dressing like this because I am pissed and I think it serves Joey right. I am not a prostitute anymore so you don't have to worry about that and god I am going into my old rants like I used to." She groaned and turned around and gave Zach a hug like a little sister would do and mumbled "I am so damn fucked up.." She didn't let any tears fall though..she refused.

[Zachary Mark Flaherty]

Zach rolled his eyes. "No shit. Really?" He asked. He blinked at her. "What's with my full name with people? Gabriel calls me Zachary all the time. Did I miss something about my name or something?" He asked. He raised hie eyebrow slightly. "What happened?" He asked. What happened to everyone? This was totally different from when they were back in the old town.

"Do you know why he would do that?" He asked. "So. you're here looking for him? I haven't seen him. I was talking with his brother. He said that he left last night in a fit and screamed that Joey was leaving the state. He's gone Eliza." He said.

"You have changed though. That's the thing. You dress like a slut, and you're a lot more bitchy." He said. "And you're just not the same. You were so much better before." He said. "You can't leave again. Gabriel will go off again. And...I didn't take it well last time" He admitted.

he hugged her back. "Aren't we all?" He asked. He ran his hand through her hair. "But we love you anyway. Why do you think we are all happy that you are back? Because we missed you." He said. "I know Gabriel missed you a lot. And so did I. You're like my sister. You can't leave me again." He said softly.

[Eliza Renee Parson]

Eliza smiled and said "Sorry, it is kind of fun to say your full name. I will stop though Zach." Yawning she streched slightly and said "A lot of stuff happened. I don't really want to explain it all. take to long. Bring back to many emotions. Long story short I am not the only one who has changed." She crossed her arms over her chest.

When Eliza heard he was gone her eyes went wide and it felt like a sharp pain in her chest. Staring at Zach than at the ground she whispered "He left, he left knowing that I was coming to kill him...I knew it..I just..knew it.." Her body shaking she clutched her fists and whispered "The ass..."She didn't know what else to say.

"I know I have changed Zach!" She snapped. She was tired of people reminding her. Tears streaming down her face she said "I am sorry, people change. I had no one to go to and I couldn't stay my dad was truely going to kill me. I just knew it. I could feel it. Wait, how did you and Gabriel react?" She wanted to know. At least know how Zach reacted.

Smiling she said "Yes, and I love you guys too. You both are like family to me. I don't know what I would do without you.." Resting her head against his chest she said "I am sorry Zach.." Hearing him whisper she said "I won't leave again Zach. I swear. It was that one time...It won't happen again." She gulped and said "I missed you too Zach..a lot.."

[Zachary Mark Flaherty]

Zach looked at her. "Do you know what its like for your full name to be called when you never use it?" He asked "Its strange." He looked at her. "Are you saying I've changed?" He asked.

"Liz, He may have thought that he did something wrong, and that he didn't know how to face you. You have to remember, Joey wasn't good with people at all. He doesn't know what it's like for someone to scream at you. His father is never home. He could die anytime because he is over in the war.." He said softly. "Joey isn't good with people. You should know that, you spent the most time with him out of anyone. Even Jake barely talked to him."

Zach's blue eyes widened at her. "No need to snap at the boy that never sleeps anymore." He growled. Yeah, that was the old Zach, snapping all the time at people. "You could have stayed with me and Sydney you know. I didn't take it well okay, I moped around the house, then only a week later Sydney was taken from me! I nearly killed myself after that. I mean, I electrocuted myself, and was in a coma for three months." He said.

"Pppfff. You know you can't forget me. I'm too lovable to beforgetting, or of an ass. Which ever." He said, shrugging.

[Eliza Renee Parson]

Eliza sighed and said "Yeah kinda. Zach you DID get married it getting Sydney pregnant for crying out loud. Plus you aren't the old Zach so yeah..we both have changed." She shrugged.

Eliza rubbed her temples as he talked and she said "I know all that Zach. I was the only person he really trusted. What he did wasn't wrong Zach what he did was terrifying. I seriously would've traded places with Gabriel. I would rather be almost killed than Gabriel. Because Gabriel has gone through a lot and I need to stop talking." Her teeth clenched she knew she probably shouldn't of said that. Because she did she assumed Zach may think she liked Gabriel. No. She cared for him like a close family member.

"Than get damn sleep and maybe I won't snap as much." She snapped back. She felt like screaming at him when he said that he tried to electrocute himself and kill himself after Sydney and her both left. She broke away from his hug and turned around to face him and said "Goddamnit Zach do Not give me the whole guilt trip. You know you could've waited to tell me that part after I was calmed down!" She was screaming now. "I am not in the mood to hear you tried to kill yourself! I can't believe you would even do that! You do know how much it would hurt for me to see two guys kill themself in a three month period of time!" She felt like sobbing now.

Glaring at him she turned away and faced the food items....God. She was pissed and depressed now. Great..just great..

[Zachary Mark Flaherty]

"Oh yes because I really just meant to knock her up. That was my plan all along." He growled and rolled his eyes. Yeah, he was going back to his old self. "I've grown up, you know to a point. I can't be my old self around Ember. Do you realize what she could learn from me? Bad things. Very bad things." He said calmly.

Zach stared at her for a moment "H-How bad did Gabriel get hurt?" He asked, before he coughed. "I'm aware what has happened to Gabriel. I saw him a few days ago when I was in the center with Ember. She liked him a lot.." He said.

"I can't do that anymore, Eliza." He snapped. "I stay up at night so that Sydney can sleep to go to school. Someone has to stay with the baby all the time. And I thought that it would be better if Sydney got to do her dreams for a life. I didn't have dreams. So, I haven't gone to school in a year and a half." He growled. His hands tightened into fists. "It wasn't like a meant to do that. I spilled some water on an extension thing, and I electrocuted myself while trying to clean it up. It was a fucking mistake. I'm still here as you can see." He growled.

"Eliza. I know, I still miss Garrett too. But I wasn't trying to join him, really. it was just a mistake." He said softly. He watched her turn around. "Liz, I'm sorry. I've been up all freaking night with Ember because she wanted to play and not sleep." He sighed. He coughed again.

[Eliza Renee Parson]

Eliza clenched her fists and mumbled "It is called protection..It seems like I am one of the very few people who still use it." She shut her eyes and her body was shaking. Looking at him she said "You should've given the kid up for adoption Zach. I know you. You refuse to get a job. Going to make Sydney do all the work. Thats what my dad did to my mom and look where she is now. Dead." She hissed.

"Bad. Not going to describe it, but bad. His whole left arm from his elbow to his wrist was slit open." She clenched her fists and said "Oh those scars? That is nothing compared to the scar he is going to get on his arm." She narrowed her eyes at him.

Narrowing her eyes she said "Dreams or no dreams Zach I bet Ember deserves two parents that finished high school. When she asks you 'Daddy, where do you work?' What are you going to say? I never finished high school? She is going to get the idea she doesn't have to go." She was just repeating her past it seemed like. Her dad always said that to her 'You don have to finish High School to succeed. I just knocked up some girl and got you..amazing aint it?' Of course she was fourteen at the time. She shook her head getting rid of the past for now.

Her body was shaking and she fell to her knees and balled her hands up into fists and pressed them against her eyes as she started to sob. She didn't care who saw. She sobbed and said between tears "Why did he just leave me like that Zach? Why couldn't he of at least waited..Waited till I left...he just..left...When I was starting to like him he just fucking left me! You want a reason for why I left! He is the reason! I couldn't stay in that town with him there..." Hearing him talk about Ember again she just ignored the comment. Whatever. Eliza stayed on the ground and wrapped her arms around herself.

She knew she had been lying to herself and other people why she left. 'Because of my dad...' No. That wasn't it. It was because of Garrett. He just...died...she couldn't be happy in that town with memories of Garrett just floating around her. It was just to much.

[Zachary Mark Flaherty]

Zach stared at her with angry in his blue eyes as she said 'put the baby up for adoption.' He grabbed both of her wrists and picked her up off the ground, so her feet weren't even on the ground. "Eliza. It was our choice. And you know what? Sydney knew that I wanted a family for once in my fucking life. One that wouldn't just put me back in at adoption agency because I did something stupid and they didn't like me. Alright. So you gave your baby away, does that mean just because you did that I have to?" He snapped at her. He thought that she would know him, and that he always wanted a family that wouldn't just give him away. He was dealing with that his whole life. "I wasn't going to let my child have a life I did."

Zach dropped her wrists and shook his head. "He's probably going to be fine." He said, angry still in his voice.

He glared at her. "Eliza. I don't have to do anything anyone wants me to do. I was seventeen when I knocked Sydney up. It was a mistake. We didn't realize till afterward about protection. Okay. So i didn't go to school. Its better then suicide! And you know what, we love her anyway. No family is prefect. You know as well as we do that someone has to be with a baby at all times. I wasn't just going to leave her in a day care so that I could go to school. If Sydney wanted me to do something, why hasn't she asked?" He snapped again.

This was really starting to get Zach upset. He really though that Eliza would understand him like she use to, not anymore. "Everyone missed him. And no one can bring him back. If I could, I would. Its not anyone's fault. He said that he just didn't like his life anymore, and he didn't want to be in the way." He said, his voice getting softer as he spoke. He missed him too, but he didn't cry about it. Zach never cried about anything.

He didn't sit down next to her, he didn't move. He was still leaning on the cart that had stuff in it. He pulled out a cigarette out of his sweatshirt pocket and put it in his mouth. He would have lit it, but he would have been kicked out, and he didn't need that now. He had to get food for them, and he knew that Sydney would kill him if he didn't bring home food.

[Eliza Renee Parson]

When Zach picked Eliza up by the wrists she yelped and squirmed and glared down at him as he talked. "Zach put me down!" She hissed. Staring at him she said "I know all about the adoption agencies Zach. I am not stupid! I know you want a family, but I think you could've waited till you were both older and graduated. I regret dropping out of high school I don't even know if I have the grades to get back in. I am sorry you were given up multiple times. We can't control our past, but hopefully you can control Embers. Make sure you clear all the razors out of the bathroom before she goes in and shuts it..you know why." She said quietly. She did not want to fight right now. "Than don't."

When he dropped her wrists she fell onto the floor and rubbed her wrists and said "He is still my friend Zach."

Listening to him talk again her eyes went wide at the sound of suicide coming out of his mouth. Jolting up she looked a him and said "Stop saying that. I know that dropping out of high school is better than suicide. I know someone has to be with a kid at all times. I am not dumb alright. Also there are daycares you can trust. You love that kid I can tell, but...nevermind.." She stopped and turned away from him and said "Sydney doesn't like asking people to do things that they probably won't do. You and I both know that even for Sydney you probably won't ever leave that kid for less than an hour." She hissed.Again.

Eliza crossed her arms and tears fell and said "I know that! I read the goddamn note Zach!" Her body shaking she stood up and turned around and said "Listen, I know what I am saying doesn't make much sense. I am sorry alright? I was just giving my part okay? You don't have to listen to me.." Stepping closer to him she hissed "Though don't you ever. Ever grab me again."

Turning away from him for a second she said "Zach, I don't know if we can even see eye to eye anymore..which is sad..I don't even know if we can remain..friends.." She said what she had been thinking. Last two times she saw Zach they fought and he criticized what she wore. It was getting on her nerves. Did she criticize him for wearing eyeliner or girl jeans. No. Though of course he called her slut and it was driving her nuts. She knew that. She didn't need to hear it from Zach a hundred goddamn times.

[Zachary Mark Flaherty]

Zach just stared at her. "I'm aware. And I have nothing to say." He said "Then you shouldn't have said anything about giving up Ember. She's my life, okay. I wouldn't give her up for anything." He growled. He glared at her. "I haven't fucking cut myself since we found outthen Ember was going to be born! Only that one time when Sydney screamed at he me in the mall two days ago because some other girl kissed me when I was with Ember." Zach said. He made a noise like he was trying not to break down. He hated that night forever, and ever. It hurt him just to even think about it.

Zach didn't say anything, he was clearly very upset and didn't want to say anything to make her more mad at him. "I don't ever trust people. Never have." he said, before coughing. Okay, so he was having more of a coughing fit, like the time he had pneumonia. Though he hoped that she wouldn't fawn over him. He hated that more then anything, people taking care of him. He never liked it. He could be dying and he wouldn't want someone to take care of him.

"Didn't everyone read the note, or what they could of his handwriting?" He asked. "You know I would do just about anything to see him again. I miss him. I miss him hugging me. Alright? I hate it when people do that to me, but I miss him." He said. He couldn't lie about that. He truly did miss him.

When she said that they probably couldn't be friends, it broke him. He was the boy that already lost all his good friends except for Sydney. He found Eliza again, after not seeing her, and she doesn't want to be friends? It tore him apart. A tear ran down his face though, he turned away hoping that she wouldn't see how hurt he was by that. "I don't want to loose all my friends. Granted I never had a lot of friends, but I don't want to loose the closest person to a sister I've ever had." He mumbled, though he was still very bad at mumbling when he was upset about something.

"But If you don't want to be friends anymore, then I guess I'll get over it." He said loud enough for her to hear him clearly. He moved a little, slightly chewing the cigarette in his mouth. He pushed the cart a little, starting to walk away. He turned his head back to look at her. He felt another tear on his face and he turned back.

[Eliza Renee Parson]

Eliza stared back at him her eyes narrowed. Her body trembling she knew that she was probably going to regret this later. Stupid Eliza. Stupid.. Eliza's head jolted and said "Oh my gosh, another girl kissed you..well it.." She stopped. She was going to say it served them right. She saw how much it hurt to see Zach and Sydney basically making out in the tree. Her eye twitched at the memory. She still was hurt by that. Though she didn't dare tell Zach. She already told Sydney, but not Zach.

"You never trusted people. Though I got used to it. I was one of the few people to not mind you didn't tell about your past." She crossed her arms and heard him coughing and said "Are you okay Zach?" Worry in her voice. She hoped that he didn't get that one sickness he got. Well, she couldn't remember the name, but it was bad.

"Yes they did Zach yes they did.." She hissed. She looked away and let tears fall again and whispered "I know Zach. I might of hated him, but I do miss him...he was the only one to really understand at times sure we fought, but still..." She paused and looked away.

She turned to look at him and saw as a tear fell down his face. Her eyes went wide and she felt her heart start to shatter. Did she make Zach cry? Zach. Of all people. Zach didn't even cry at Garrett's funeral yet he cried when Eliza said she didn't want to be friends. Did she really mean that much to him..? He soon answered that question. Looking at him she didn't say anything for a moment, but just let it all soak in. He thought of her like a sister? She knew deep down sure, but he never said it. Biting her upper lip she looked away. He was mumbling. Great. She did upset him.

Looking at him as he said that he'd get over it she whispered"Bullshit." When he started to walk away and turned back and another tear fell from his eye and he turned away she quickly knew what she had to do. Ripping off her shoes she ran toward him quickly and wrapped her arms around him from behind and said "Zach, I don't know what I was saying...I don't want to loose you as a friend..I am sorry..I really am." Her arms getting tighter around his stomach she knew he might be pissed and said "Zach, if you are pissed off at me I understand one hundred percent." Unlocking from the hug she was giving it she stood there and stood at the ground and said "I-I am sorry..I really am..I am just...tensed up a lot lately alright?" She bit her lower lip and turned away.

[Zachary Mark Flaherty]

Zach looked at her. "Shut up." He snapped. He never meant to hurt her, because that was what he did to her with Sydney, but it ended up okay. Right? Wrong. That was the same night that Eliza slept with Garrett and he started to act very strangely. He shook his head slightly, clearing his mind from that memory. Why were most of his memories painful to remember? He didn't have many good ones. Ones that were burned into his head.

"I didn't even tell you I was adopted before that day I crashed my truck trying to find you." He said. He shook his head "Does it sound like I'm okay?" He snapped before coughing again. He was really sick, but if you thought about it, it was just a cold for anyone else, but for him it was worse. The low immune system. "I just wished that Ember didn't have my immune system." He said.

He couldn't even look at her at that moment. She broke him apart when she said that. She was the only friend that he had left. He felt her come up behind him, and hug his waist. He twitched at her hug. He coughed again. "You're the only friend I have left, other then Sydney." He said. He was being truthful, she was the only one that he had left.

He couldn't stay anything to her. When she hugged him, and started to pull away he stood there. He took her hands after a moment and held them for a moment. Though, he started to cough and he let her go to cover his mouth and looked at her. He was suffering, and felt like crap. He didn't want to loose her as a friend and all, but he wasn't going to let her near him if he was this sick. He looked rather bad if you saw his face, his face was pale and gray. But then, he wasn't one to be tan. He had pale skin anyway, and when he was sick or cold he turned gray and looked like he was about to die. And if you heard him, you would think that he was dying. He looked at his hand, blood. He was coughing up blood again. He stuffed his hands into his pockets before anyone was able to see.

He had a little bit of blood on his lip, and on the side of his mouth, though he didn't notice. He was sick, like he was dying sick. And he had not been in the hospital for a while. Which was rather odd for him. Sure its been a few days more then just a cold would stay around, but he told everyone that he was fine. But coughing up blood in a stop & shop was a very very bad sign.